Every season of our lives comes and goes with little realization as to the significance of those times as they are unfolding. It is only in retrospect that we grasp what we had in those times. If one looks through the days of their lives and the seasons past, you might begin to see a pattern. I have realized that in mine the patterns seem to consist of holding myself back. While one might say that the fear of failure is a common thing, what about the fear of success? Fear of success happens more than people think, you begin to unravel at the many what-ifs and what will I do if scenarios, and just as one is afraid of failing, they might also talk themselves out of trying because they get too far ahead in the fear of obstacles that may come with their success.
Living in the moment is age-old advice, often dismissed and pushed aside for another day. The dismissal comes from the naive idea that living in the moment is easy, but it is one of the hardest things you will ever do consistently. Being fully present in your actions and words and experience are not at all simple and easy tasks but these are solid words of advice echoed repeatedly from our elders throughout our entire lives. Trying to save us from our own misfortune of looking back at the seasons of our lives with an ache and awe at what it was we didn’t realize and what it was we didn’t do or feel and be enough of and how quickly and unapologetically the days swept by unslowing and uncaring for what we had, what we were, and what all and who all we lost along the way. Time spent quickly wished away for later, tomorrow, and some other time. Life doesn’t offer a rewind, pause, or any alteration of speed we are stuck on play until the end of our story and the ending is not a surprise and yet still a surprise, none of us make it out alive we just don’t always know when we will go.