Have you ever set out to do one thing and then everything shifts? Suddenly you see clearly what you need to do even if it requires sacrifice. I had this weird anxiety about starting this new position feeling torn between my head and my gut and I finally got the message clear and then my head became calm. I decided to contact the employer and pass on the position for now so I can dedicate my time to finishing school. They were incredibly understanding and asked me to let them know if anything changes because they would love to have me. I have been agonizing for months on if and when or how I would return to school and suddenly I just knew that the right thing was to finish and put on hold as long as possible returning to work. I need the time free to put in the full focus. I finally feel ready and sure. Crazy how that happens. I had been asking for clarity and guidance thinking it would present itself in the form of a dream or signs somehow. Instead, it was an instant knowing that came with a wave of calm and certainty.
Oddly I have a dear friend who is looking for a transition in employment and she is a perfect fit for the position I passed on so I am encouraging her to go and grab that up while it is still available. It looks as if we may both end up where we both need to be right now. I have such a spiritual connection with her that we call ourselves soul sisters. We have had many shared dreams and similar experiences. We at times seem to be telepathically connected as well. More than once I have at random messaged her the lyrics to a song she was just singing and not like a popular song. Something crazy like an old childhood song from Elementary school. It’s a strange and wonderful bond. We can go months without speaking and when we catch up the similarities are always crazy as to what we have been going through. I have been trying to persuade my actual sister to join me in school, she too is looking for a transition in employment. I think we are all looking for less stress, healthy environments, and balance and why shouldn’t we, we deserve it. Everyone deserves balance and happiness. We spend so much of our lives out of our lives, the ones that occur outside of work and school when it should be the opposite or at least a little more equal. Who wants to sleep all their free time away? Not to mention that it ends up feeling like a version of Groundhog Day because we practically do it over and over again daily with little deviation from the routine of the daily grind. We don’t mind working, but we want to live a little too.