This Season On Your Life

Every season of our lives comes and goes with little realization as to the significance of those times as they are unfolding. It is only in retrospect that we grasp what we had in those times. If one looks through the days of their lives and the seasons past, you might begin to see a pattern. I have realized that in mine the patterns seem to consist of holding myself back. While one might say that the fear of failure is a common thing, what about the fear of success? Fear of success happens more than people think, you begin to unravel at the many what-ifs and what will I do if scenarios, and just as one is afraid of failing, they might also talk themselves out of trying because they get too far ahead in the fear of obstacles that may come with their success.

Living in the moment is age-old advice, often dismissed and pushed aside for another day. The dismissal comes from the naive idea that living in the moment is easy, but it is one of the hardest things you will ever do consistently. Being fully present in your actions and words and experience are not at all simple and easy tasks but these are solid words of advice echoed repeatedly from our elders throughout our entire lives. Trying to save us from our own misfortune of looking back at the seasons of our lives with an ache and awe at what it was we didn’t realize and what it was we didn’t do or feel and be enough of and how quickly and unapologetically the days swept by unslowing and uncaring for what we had, what we were, and what all and who all we lost along the way. Time spent quickly wished away for later, tomorrow, and some other time. Life doesn’t offer a rewind, pause, or any alteration of speed we are stuck on play until the end of our story and the ending is not a surprise and yet still a surprise, none of us make it out alive we just don’t always know when we will go.

Published by izzysconfessions

I was born and raised in the smallest of towns in Southwest Virginia. A town that is extraordinarily active, yet a town that is like it's very own little mini Bible belt. My dad was Baptist, my mom pentecostal, and I'm paranormal. I would venture to say it is somewhat of a family trait. One that is met with equal acceptance and curiosity as much as it is met with skepticism. Individually and collectively so much has been experienced and witnessed at times to such a degree that one might wonder how on earth there is room for doubt. I dont have all the answers, I do not have it all figured out. Im as human as everyone else relying heavily many mornings on a lot of coffee and a little Jesus. In fact, I can't decide what I want for dinner most days. One constant is I cannot go a single day without chocolate. Pour a cup of coffee, or a little tea and whiskey and join me in my confessions of a haunted freak.

6 thoughts on “This Season On Your Life

  1. Liz Phair has a song lyric that I often recite. It goes, “Scared the lights will turn Red (you’re stuck in your head)… Scared the lights will turn Green (you’ll have to be seen)… reminds me of the debate between fear of failure vs. fear of success you articulate here! I think both are real, and appropriately feared. We should fear both. But not allow ourselves to be be paralyzed.

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