Not a good night, rated 2 out of 10 if that. Still can’t sleep. Not sure what is even going on. I know something is a miss. I had the bottom of my foot tapped hard three times, the left foot. I can’t sleep because the goal was to get me alone, mission accomplished. I’ve got some spiritual PTSD going on. How many times has this happened? Here we go again, spiritual isolation.
I also heard a faint tap on the window above my head. I feel like I’m being watched and stared at, how does one sleep in those circumstances, I personally don’t. So much not good about this night, feeling pretty alone and abandoned. I don’t even know how to feel in general. At this point, I just wish I were at home in my own bed. I am so tired and I can not sleep. So much feels off right now. I have so much to get done tomorrow and at this point, it’s going to be rough sailing. I feel like I am in my own personal nightmare and it’s bringing back so many memories that just make the whole situation feel like it is snowballing. I have been seeing crap all day.